SOUL ACHE

I'VE GOT SOUL ACHE --- I DON'T KNOW how else to put it, when insides of my body - not the physiological or emotional self - hurt, cry and wail.  A presence which is aware of it's own presence, and can also observe it as an outsider, writhes in pain. For lack of a better word I would call this inside presence, and unknown destination of the "I" part of me,  my 'SOUL.' 

How do I comfort my soul? There are many ways of looking at the world around us, one can be an optimist and hope to have a solution to every difficult situation in life. One can also be a pessimist thinking life and its vicissitudes impossible and oppressive. Graduating from a life of pessimism one can assume a cynical attitude, which makes for a bitter, callous and a negative person. My sadness has nothing to do with any of these world views, it is constant, continual, perpetual, stable and ongoing. I may be visibly happy and content, yet there lurks a shadow of darkness inside of me, there is a corner of my being that is melancholy. As though it is in permanent mourning of a lost love, a lost person, a loss of belonging, a loss of home.